If you were still around
I’d tear into your fear
Leave it hanging off you
In long streamers
Shreds of dread
I’d turn you
Facing the wind
Bend your spine on my knee
Chew the back of your head
Til you opened your mouth to this life
Sam Shepard, Motel Chronicles (1982)
Everything my husband touches turns to gold @kcgranger
oh things fall apart
and i’ll allow it
oh i liked working with you
oh i liked working with you too
oh i liked working
i loved working with you two
I literally keep this monster under my bed
Nah we haven’t left yet, but already reminiscing.
Millions (So Be It)
You think my daddy’s not gonna like you? You’re goddamn right. Once he sees how much I love ya, how much I need ya, nothing else remains - you are his next meal.
How often do you pray? How sincerely? While she’s talking to herself about screaming, naked, from a clif. She’s sitting in the corner singing Lana, “It’s you, it’s you, it’s all for you.” And we all laugh in the kitchen to cover the sad and lonely sound, but I am awake, and I am watching, and listening, and I cannot find you anywhere.
I have only ever lost myself in your arms. Is that what men do? They carry you?
Tonight I drove by my first boyfriend’s house, tonight I retraced our steps. I clenched my teeth and I imagined my lips smashing into the millions of lips I have loved.
What does it mean? What is the value of this? If he feels rejected, so be it. So be it.
But in this world, where something is always listening, even
murmuring has meaning, as in the next room you moan
in your sleep, turning into late morning. My love, this might be
all we know of forgiveness, this small time when you can forget
what you are. There will come a day when the meadow will think
suddenly, water, root, blossom, through no fault of its own,
and the horses will lie down in daisies and clover. Bedeviled,
human, your plight, in waking, is to choose from the words
that even now sleep on your tongue, and to know that tangled
among them and terribly new is the sentence that could change your life.
Marie Howe, “The Meadow”
tangled / among them and terribly new
Suddenly having a CD changer.. Time capsule stuff